If Ever

"She had to let herself drop down to the reality to enjoy him as he really was"
-Anna Karenina

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(not now) If Ever
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to get to the sweet core
where fear slips away
and warm kisses smother all doubt
the line between right and right now
seems blurry

you slide your hand down my spine
as I exhale warm air on your neck
there's no room between us
for uncertainty
no answers or thoughts or even questions

just your lips
my mouth
our taste

it's just -
and nothing like it should be.